Pizza and Domino's.

Last night we went over to his parents house to visit. We grabbed her favorite pizza and it was a good evening. We ate pizza and played domino's. One thing I wanted to mention is that there is a very very deep tension between Kyle's Father and Mother.

I can understand both sides. His father doesn't want to lose the wife who's been by his side all these years... so he wants to try anything and everything. But his mother doesn't want to put her body through too much having already been through a round of chemo and been down this path before. In the middle of dinner last night, her frustration came out as her husband mentioned other treatments if this next round of chemo doesn't slow it down like they hope. And she said "The fact of the matter is, we can't stop it. I am going to get sicker. This is going to get worse, and I am going to die."

The room fell silent for God knows how long. She went on to explain, without tears in her eyes amazingly, that she's not going to keep reaching out for different handles to hold on to. If it doesn't work, she's going to take the time she's given, and pass when it's time.

My heart went out to both of them. I had no idea what to say. Thankfully, I have no idea how, but we all got away from the subject and the harsh truth. But it's moments like that when I'm speechless. When I have no idea what to say or do, and I just sit there, dumbfounded.

When the guys went out side, I did get a moment with her when she started to cry because she understands that her husband doesn't want to lose her, but she doesn't want to hold on to all these hopeless dreams, because the fact of the matter is that she IS going to die...

God, I don't know if this is exactly what this blog is for, my sappy story for day to day. But it's just so real. When you're younger and your grandparents start passing, you realize down the road... that that means that you're parents are next. But to have to watch it? It's just so heart breaking for everyone involved.